Our Next Assignment....

Our next assignment in english is going to bring up a lot of emotions. I can only think of one major thing that seems to echo in my mind. This event changed my life and how I look at everything in it. I went through every emotion that there is to go through during that week. Even today I am a bit confused and angry. But at some point there is a lesson and moving on and what not. Still very har to get through.

I am also nervous about letting my peers read it. I am wondering if judgments will be made, and maybe I am a little bit protective of the event. It is mine after all. The sadness and the hurt, were all mine. Sharing seems an odd thing to do.

I can't believe that I was ever intimidated by....

I can't believe that I was ever intimidated by college. I was a little concerned about starting school again after so many years. (14 to be exact) I was nervous that I wouldn't be able to keep up. I was nervous that people would look at me like the old lady. Well they probably do, but I guess at a certain age it doesn't matter what people think of you anymore. I have seen that the kids have not changed. They are still the same ones I left at good ole BHP in 1997.

The jocks are still sticking jocks. And the cheerleaders are still stinking cheerleaders. I have realized though, that it doesn't matter anymore... all the drama they have, all the annoying things they say. I can walk away and not have to worry about all of that when I get home.

Another thing is that being in school again and having group activities I have found that life experience may be a factor in learning as well. I have seen that I am not as far behind as I originally thought. I also found that my once "arch enemy" the cheerleader... just might be smart after all. Ditsy, but smart. I am learning all the time. :)

Not much better...

Things are a little slower now that the IV has been done. Although it took me two times of inserting the needle. My husband should have married a nurse. I hate working with needles and it is more intimidating that the nurse is always standing over my shoulder.

I also found out that my math test didn't go as well as I had hoped. But at least I made a B. I also got a pretty good grade on my sociology paper last week, and mz. smiff was pretty nice with her grade on my essay. (wink wink) :)

Gabriel's teacher is concerned that he is behind in his recognition of the letters. But he has only been in school a little over a month and he was never in preschool. I am sure he will be fine. The only thing is when he finds something difficult, he "checks" out literally. She said that she turns her back and the next thing she knows is that he is under his desk. (shaking my head) Maybe I should take a cue from my Gabie baby and hide under my desk during my next math test. :)

I am writing this blog but I should be...

I am writing this blog but I should be doing numerous amounts of things at once. The trip to Vegas has put me behind in almost all of my classes. I have 50 plus assignments due in Spanish and a paper due tomorrow in Sociology. I wrote part of it on the flight, but without a computer on the flight it was a little difficult to research. I had a math test yesterday, after having four hours of sleep because the flight was a late arrival.

Not to mention all of things that need to be done around the house. Evidently the kids used every article of clothing they own while we were away. I have about 10 loads of laundry to wash and fold. i hate folding laundry. The sink is full of dishes, and the garbage cans are overflowing.

All of this on top of the fact that I got a note from Gabriel's teacher wanting a conference about his behavior and his academic progress. That's this afternoon at three. After that meeting I get to go infuse my husband with his IV. Then go back home and work on homework with the kids. Joshua had his tests from last week sent home after having failed every one of them. He did not even read the tests. Just picked an a, b, c, or d. I may strangle that boy. :/

In January, I was...

In January, I was blissfully unaware that my husband would be diagnosed with a life threatening disease. In April we found out that he has HAE, or Hereditary Angioedema. It is a disease that causes swelling in the limbs, face and airway. Death can result from a quick throat swelling.

Among all of the heartaches that have come from this disease, we have had many blessings as well. All of the financial aspects that you might think go along with a disease like this have been taken care of. We have a company called PSI who is taking care of paying the premiums for his insurance and his copays. All of that and paying for his medication and his treatments.

The treatments are as follows: twice a week I have to inject his port with an infusion of this medicine called Cinryze. I am not a nurse by any means. I absolutely hate sticking that needle in. Ugh. It seems to be my worst nightmare ever.

Now on to another blessing I left out. HAEA (the association for HAE) has paid for us to go to Las Vegas this weekend... all expenses paid. I am currently packing, and we leave in the morning. I would write all about it when I return, but it seems what happens in Vegas stays there.... Unless I win some money, that's coming home with me.